I watch a movie years ago call the BEAUTIFUL MIND base on John Nash he was an mathematical genius-who suffer from Schizophrenia. I never dream in a millions years that I would have a child who I will call Hope-for the sake of this article with the same disorder, when she was growing up there were no signs of this disorder all she had was some anger issues as I look back maybe that was the tall tale sign. She is very good at writing poetry, Hope had written several poems for people obituaries. She also did some poetry for the church events we use to belong too. No one could ever imagine how a mother feels when her child suffers with a mental disorder. Here is one of Hope's Poems that she written in 1998 for our late aunt Jessie Mae who was the foster mother of many children.
Jessie Mae
Jessie Mae
Who can become a mother of 22 or more in just one day?
Take them all to church and teach them how to pray
Bring them all together almost every Sunday
(no one ) but Jessie Mae
Who could make you sit straight in church
Without causing a scene by giving you a little pinch
Called a RING-A DING (no one) but Jessie Mae
Jessie Mae was a mother to all those whose mothers were not around
She had a special talent for connecting people together
From all around town
She was full of laughter and lots of love
And I am proud to say that she was good friends with the man above
I know that she will be missed much more than before
But let her teachings be your strength that eases your pain away
And let’s try to remember that God has blessed us with more
Than one Jessie Mae
Yes this is one of the many poems that Hope wrote but that all change when Schizophrenia showed it’s face.
As a mother you wish you could go in your child’s brain and take away all their sickness, and also mend the broken pieces – sometimes a parent has to find their own support system because the burden of having to deal with your child mental illness is so heavy. What makes so sad is when you watch your adult child take a turn for the worse and as a parent you ask yourself what could I have done different while caring this child for nine months to make sure this would have never happen? And the answer is I don’t know. And surprisingly as it may seem many people with schizophrenia have been known to be well educated.
